I was reading Alexa Di Carlo’s post regarding the face as personal face on Thursday and it put me in the mood to do some sexual self-exploration regarding that theme. I thought of two sexual-self exploration exercise I could do and not only did they both go splendidly, but I thought up of a third face related exercise alone the way and got a bonus self exploration in male multiple orgasms in the process.
Exercise number one: Face fucking myself while masturbating.
Now I’ve face fucked myself before but it was a standalone exercise (see: Anal play: week one), I decided I wanted to masturbate while doing it this time. More specifically, I wanted to see how it felt to orgasm with a dildo working my mouth. So, I took out the Hitachi and my dildo and started the experiment. Fucking my mouth with the dildo while putting the Hitachi on my cock was indeed good but the moment of (non-ejaculatory orgasm) was incredible. When I came and my body started to spasm, I started to seriously gag on the dildo but the feeling wasn’t unpleasant. The utterly submissive feeling of gagging on that thing as the ecstasy of orgasm moved through my body was incredibly, submissively, pleasant.
With that out of the way I moved on to exercise #2
Exercise number 2: Giving a myself a facial
Even before Alexa’s post, I have been think intensely about how it must feel for someone to receive a facial. Part of this is the theme of wondering how the other half must feel during sex. I had previously decided to explore that a bit by seeing if I could give myself a facial. At first, I tried doing something like this to get my own cum on my own face but I couldn’t hold the right position when I came and ended up missing. I do want to try that again but I wasn’t in the mood for a yoga session Thursday so I thought: Is there any other way for me to give myself a “facial”? Once again, Alexa’s blog(1), provided the inspiration. I recalled a story she posted where someone gave her a facial by cumming into another women’s cunt and then letting the cum drip on to her face. Once my heart stopped pounding after the self-face-fucking, I took out my Fleshlight and decided to simulate the above with it.
I lubed up the Fleshlight and decided since I already had the Hitachi I would put it on my perineum as I have in the past. This is where the bonus unexpected exploration started. At first, my goal was just a quick ejaculation into the Fleshlight so I could get the experiences of cum dripping on my face from my faux pussy. However, the experience quickly become something much more intense. I moved the Fleshlight up and down the head of my cock as the Hitachi worked my perineum and I could feel an orgasm building, as it did I started contracting my PC muscles. I thought I was going to cum and then I had a powerful orgasm rip through me but… to my shock there wasn’t any cum; I didn’t ejaculate.
It not that non-ejaculatory orgasms are something new to me; or even having non-ejaculatory orgasms with this Hitachi/Fleshlight combo. However, the difference is that before they were independent processes the Hitachi produced the multiple non-ejaculatory orgasms while the Fleshlight pushed me to one big ejaculatory orgasm(2). This was different, this orgasm had all the characteristics of an ejaculatory orgasm except the actually ejaculation. What I have read about male multiple orgasms has said that learning to control the PC muscles is key to controlling ejaculation and that is exactly what I did here. Could it be that I have basically figured out how to have penetrative stimulation and not orgasm? I keep going and kept coming (without cumming), these orgasms again felt like my ejaculatory orgasms only no cum and they definitely felt like they were due to the Fleshlight not the Hitachi. I lost count how many orgasms I had but it was over five, definitely. It was incredibly intense, at one point I had enough piece of mind to realize my door was unlocked but I did not care this was too intense I would have to accept the risk. Eventually, I ejaculated, a very intense finisher.
I’m still in awe at this new orgasmic variant. I’m going to have to try it with just the Fleshlight to see if I can really orgasm without ejaculation this way or if these were just a new variant on my Hitachi-induced orgasms. Either way these where different enough from my other orgasms that I think I have a new item on my orgasmic menu, but confirmation would have to wait for another day*.
Now it was time for my pseudo-facial, I was surprised I remembered what I originally came for (pun intended?) after my unexpected multiorgasmic discovery, I closed my eyes put the Fleshlight over my head and let the cum start to drip out of the Fleshlight. The cum hit me on the left eye, my eyes where shut tight so I didn’t feel any burning. I took my fingers and put them inside the Fleshlight scooping out the remaining cum and then liking it off my fingers. After leaving the cum on my face for a little while, I took a washcloth and cleaned myself off. I enjoyed this on a submissive high level as well. If nothing else there something about being on the receiving end of the dominate acts (or at least a facsimile of them) that I spent so many years feeling guilty for wanting to perform that is cathartic to me. It helps me let go of all the guilt and shame that been heaped upon those acts and those who enjoy them.
Ok so missions accomplished however since I was on a roll here I decided to do one more face-related exercise before the day was done a pee play exercise. Now I have drank my own urine before, I want to explore everything, but I decided I was going to take it a step further I was going to see how it felt to have it splashed over my face. Later that day I went to the bathroom and peed into a paper cup. I went into the shower stall and poured about half the cup on my face. The warmth of it on my face then dripping on to my chest was very arousing especially if I pictured it coming out of another human beings body. I took the cup and took a big gulp of it in my mouth and… ok, I was clearly was eating/drinking something different that day because it was a lot saltier and bitter then the other time I did it. I decided to see how long I could keep the arid mixture in my mouth, before swallowing or spiting. I don’t know how long I lasted but it wasn’t long before I spited out. I was kind of disappointed in my poor performance here. I took the cup and swallowed the last of its contents.
This basically confirmed what I found when I had previously done self-experimentation with pee play.
One I could definitely do water sport (receiving) if I found the right partner and two like I said being on the sub end of thing does removes the guilt associated with my dominate fantasies and lets me enjoy them much more fully. I like being switch-y. Now there was one last submissive jolt waiting to hit me that day. Unexpected submissive exercise/chaos is a dumbass #1: Like I said, I was in the shower stall and you know how you have to let the water warm up before you hop under the showerhead well in my submissive high I forgot that and…fuck that water was cold. In my submissive state, I was able to erotize it a bit and after the experience of having a warm liquid wash over my body, it seemed very appropriate. I washed up and felt very pleased with myself.
So that was three submissive self-explorations in one day plus a bonus exploration in male multiple orgasms. My wanton self-corruption is moving along nicely I’d say.
*I haven’t confirmed it with the Fleshlight but in the lag time between experience and posting I have confirmed it jerking off with my hands and it was even more intense. These where in fact the most powerful orgasms I’ve had, with each one being more powerful then the preceding one. These where so intense my hip bucked up and down on my bed and my body convulsed with so much force I slide up and down the bed with each orgasm. I tried to count this time and lost count around five I think the final count was somewhere between 8 and 10. Ok I really need to start getting laid again so I can further test out this new found level of orgasmic control.
- I swear that thing is like the epipha-blog [↩]
- It may be hard to understand unless you’ve experienced it; they feel different and you can definitely tell the orgasm types apart [↩]