This is my first real post since I almost shut this blog down due to the fall out of an event in the blogsphere that I shall simply refer to for now as the “The Great Calamity” ; I decided to do something light and fluffy with only a minor mention of sex: the origin of my pseudonym. Don’t worry my next post after this (and if not then definitely the one after that) should be a toy review (probably the Tantus Delta). So here we go:
One of the things I had to do before making this blog was make sure I was comfortable with the handle I’ve decided to use, “namelesschaos” (which I just shorten to chaos if I’m writing in prose). So what made me attracted to this name?
Perhaps the “nameless” part refers to anonymous, pseudonym filled nature of this blog and indeed the internet as a whole. Perhaps the “chaos” part refers to the internal struggle between whom I was and who I am now? The struggle to, somehow, balance being an ethical slut, with graduate school and being a “good son”? To the fact that between the bisexual fantasies, the group sex obsession, the growing pile of sex toys and the questioning this whole sexual monogamy thing, pretty soon my sex fantasies are going to need their own choreographer? While those are all are reasons I came to like the handle after I thought of it they are not the origin of the handle. The name is actually a massive geek reference.
The name is actually the agglomeration of the names of two fictional video game characters. The first half of my name comes from the “The Nameless One” in Planescape: Torment, in my opinion the greatest role-playing game ever made. The Nameless One is also the weird dude you see in my Gravatar. The second half of the name from the character of chaos (lowercase intentional) from the Xenosaga series for the Playstation 2. Now if you’ll indulge me; I’ll briefly describe each game and how they came to be part of my user name. Planescape: Torment and “The Nameless One.”
**Spoilers for both games ahead, you’ve been warned**
What can change the nature of a man?
~Ravel Puzzlewel ~ Planescape: Torment
The plot of the game is definitely the greatest and most imaginative I’ve ever seen in a video game. In the game you play the role of the nameless one an amnesiac immortal. After, awakening in the morgue with no memory of who you are and only a few clues to guide you, you start your quest to unlock your own memories and uncover your true identity. To quickly summarize the remainder of the plot: you eventual uncover that in your first life; you where a monster of unspeakable magnitude but you eventually came to realize your evil ways and tried to make amends for your sin. Realizing that the gravity of your sins are too great to atone for in a single lifetime, you sought out the witch Ravel Puzzlewel who granted you immortality. However the ritual was flawed and even thought your body is immortal each death resulted in the death of the mind (hence your amnesia) worse still every time you die someone else takes your place in death and their spirit become ghosts know as shadows which hunt you in revenge. Eventually you regain your mortality and can finally achieve death.
The game takes place in the Planescape “multiverse” where anything is possible as the Planes shift and alter based on the collective belief of it denizens. One of the small example of this is in one of the nameless one’s uncovered memories he is in a debate and argues so effectively that his opponent couldn’t possible exist that the aforementioned opponent is instantly blinked out of existence. The main theme of the game is the quote above “What can change the nature of a man?” As you can imagine from my brief description of the game plot and it setting the game is ripe with opportunities to explore this theme. Overall, the themes of the game the search for one’s self; what can the very nature of an individual seemed appropriate for the journey this blog was going to describe.
I was originally going to name myself “the namelessone” or some variant on that but that name and it variants were already taken on twitter so I decided I was going to name myself nameless(insert catchy word here). At the time I happened to be listening to video game soundtracks(1) at the time as I was thinking of what to name myself an absolutely epic track from Xenosaga episode 2 came on: Communications Breakdown. That’s when I decided I would take my name from one of the characters involved in the scene where the aforementioned track played “the existence know as chaos”. (Why then is my current twitter name namedbychaos then? It was once namelesschaos but I deleted my original twitter account amidst “The Great Calamity” and apparently the way twitter works names and E-mails are forever tied to one account even if they are deleted ones so I couldn’t get it back once I deleted the first account )
Unleash some of thy powers!
~chaos Xenosaga series.
The Xenosaga is composed of three game all of which have a single continuous story running through them (i.e. the three games are the beginning, middle, and end of one long epic story) The series plot is extremely unique as it blends together many different influences. Including JRPG staples as such giant mechas (you fight in them), Gnostic mythology (the Gnosis are an “alien” species that are wiping out humanity), the works of Friedrich Nietzsche (look at the subtitles for each game) and the psychological theories of Carl Jung (4 of the characters in the game are called: Rubedo, Nigredo, Albedo and Citrine.)Anyone who has played the games knows their story requires a Phd in Philosophy (amongst other advanced degrees) and several reams of graph paper to understand so I’m not even going to try to summarize the games full plot. But here is the condensed version of the character of chaos from which I took half of my name from.
chaos is not a normal character, instead chaos more of cosmic force existing since the dawn of human consciousness. His being is crafted not from flesh and blood but instead from energy derived directly from the collective unconscious. This is half the reasons his name is deliberately written in lowercase, as one hint to his true existence. The second is to contrast him to his antitheist an android by the (All-caps) designation of KOS-MOS (Greek for order). (This is why I write my name in all lowercase btw, it is not just me being too lazy to use the shift key.((feel free to write it however you wish thou)) ) chaos’s very existence serves a unique function, to acts as a universal “failsafe” deceive. The Gnosis “aliens” I mentioned above are in actually the manifestations of humanity negative emotions colleting in the collective unconscious; as these negative emotions accumulate they start to approach a critical mass that when reached would cause a chain reaction obliterating all of creation. This is where chaos, the failsafe, comes into play.
The universe in Xenosaga is divided in to the Lower Domain(2) where humanity resides and the Upper Domain that included U-DO the game’s version of god. Right at the point before the chain reaction begins chaos’s “power of dissipation”, activates destroying the lower realm but stopping the chain reaction from spreading thus sparing the rest of creation. Chaos knew of his role and feared the day his powers would active. Eventually chaos decided that humanity desires to live and die by its own merits and voluntary sealed away his own power (the gloves and jumpsuit you see in the pic above are in actually another self imposed restraint device chaos uses to try to restrain his own powers). At the start of the series, chaos can feel that despite his efforts his sealed powers begining to reawaken as well as the approach of the critical mass…and humanity end. The song I mentioned above (Communications Breakdown) plays at a critical moment in the game. The moment when chaos makes his decision not to hold back any longer and actively help human consciousness find redemption,… it is the moment were chaos finally decided to enter the stage.
Ok…I promised a minor mention of sex above, here it is: KOS-MOS one of the games main characthers is the resurrection of Mary Magdalene (Yes, that Mary Magdalene. What did I say about the reams of graph paper?) . Mary Magdalene was a prostitute so technically doesn’t that mean that Xenosaga is the first mainstream RPG to have a(retried) sex worker as a main character? While we’re on this ,as if there wasn’t enough Les Ya between Shion and KOS-MOS already, what exactly do they mean when they say Shion was Mary’s “hand maiden”.
So there you have it the origin of “namelesschaos”
- Yes I listen to videogame sound tracks like I said I’m a geeky sex toy reviewer [↩]
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